All those empty promises, swearing, false hope, all is making me realize why did I ever open up to someone who was going to chew me up and spit me out. Why did I ever let her see the deepest depths Of me? Why did I let her in, and let me "love" me. I really hope one day she realizes what's been lost. I hope she has fun connecting with past flings, lovers, exes, etc. I absolutely made my faults but I wasn't the only one. If it's meant to be later then it's meant to be. I'm tired to have been putting up a fight just to be shut out an erased. I thought you fight for the ones you love? What ever happened to "no matter what, we will always be together" love is clearly a fantasy, and I'm a fool. Never again will I let someone in. I won't use a person, sleep around, or talk to people to fill the void. I am completely done with relationship, petty hookups, and false hope. Love is a lie from what I know and people just leave. Maybe it's best for people to just stay out of my life.
I wanna fucking kiss someone I actually have feelings for. no stupid pointless hookups that leave you lonely at night. I wanna kiss someone and wake up in their arms the next day. I wanna receive the love I give. I just want something real.